Never had never lost

Stay here for a minute and don't look at me because I'll not be able to stand your eyes which freeze my body. It has already happened to me before, the fact that I was not able to speak. Maybe you'll think that I'm crazy and truly I have to accept that I'm a bit, but if I don't explain to you what I have inside you'll not be able to understand me when I cry. I've never felt such lonely as yesterday when while I was in silence I realized that life was shouting to me that I never had you and never lost you and explained to me that love was a natural thing that turns up full of fire but if you force it, it dies and without having a start it comes to an end.